Messages By: candycvky

I wake up feeling tired, don't want to do anything.  I then start feeling guilty because I am not getting anything done and it makes me feel worse.  I am trying to find a stress reliever, but nothing seems to work for very long.  I go to the doctor about symptoms, and they either find nothing or maybe something, but shouldn;t be making me feel as bad as I do.

I have already went against my promises to myself.  I am seriously stressed about work, and it is showing in my eating and activities.  I have got to relax, just do my job as I need to.  I am just worried that my new manager isn't mature enough to handle a subordinate who is stronger in the area than he is.  I seem to intimidate him and do not know what to do.  I have spoke to my superiors and they are helping me to manage him.  I have a fierce temper and can be head strong and I am afraid I will end up saying something really bad.  Can't do that.  I like what I do and won't lose it for anyone.  I want to help him succeed, but he is making it hard.

I was going to try to write everyday, eat less, and not let the stress sabotage me.  Didn't happen

I spoke with 2 higher managers about my issues with my managers.  They said they are going to help me with him, but I feel like I am not being fair.  He left me this actually near impossible chore list to have completed by end of week, and barely got even close due to other issues at work.  Do not know how he is going to react and it has me worred.  I know my temper and hardheadedness and afraid of what I am going to end up saying.  I really like what I do and do not want to lose it.  I really want to teach him and help him succeed as the manager, but he really is making it hard.  Patience is not my strong suit. 

 

Weight:  218

I made my goal of exercising yesterday. 

Today, not feeling well so I will exercise tomorrow. 

I am going to measure supper tonight to make sure I am keeping to my caloric intake.