Messages By: princess3c

I went to counselling with my boyfriend yesterday. We had a big blow up. We were in the truck driving there was a pretty woman that walked by and he looked at her following her with his eyes and then checking her out in the rearview mirror. Needless to say I was hurt and angry at his lack of sensitivity towards me. After talking about it, I know this is bec. of my own insecurities and low self esteem. I'm going to a counselling session by myself to work on me tomorrow. I believe that some of these feelings are due to the after effects from my ex adultery. I don't want to feel this way any more. I'm so tired of it!!! Today, I'm by myself in my boyfriends apartment. He went on the road. He's in sales. He'll be back in a few days. In the past I used to go with him but we were arguing too much. Too much time spent  together is not good. I feel positive today enjoying my time alone. I forgot how importnat this is to me. I cleaned the apartment and then I'm going out shopping for a bit. I feel hopefull today. There is hope to get over this and to feel good about who I am.