Messages By: drvalencia

Well I thought that I was going to be strong enough to see him.  When he walked into my house on Thursday I did all that I could not to look at him.  I was shaking and nervous.  When he left I gave him a letter and told him I hope he understands.  It said that I couldn't be just a friend and if he wanted to work on our relationship we could.  Well needless to say friday I realized that he drives me crazy.  I love him but he drives me crazy.  I tried not to start a fight but I feel like its easier for me to move on if he hates me. But what do I know.  He also said that he doen't need dr phil in his life.  That made me laugh.  How does he know im on here.  But he didn't call again until Sunday and my best friend JT answered then he hung up.  Then he called again asking a million diffrent questions.  last night I tried to call him but he wasn't answering. He has me so confused. I am copping with the fact he is not coming back. but I find it really hard when I don't have anything to do and I sit around missing my friend.

Well he told me last night that he was not ready for a relationship. And I respect that he also told me not to get my hopes up.  We'll see why God is doing this.  My be the worst thing that will come out of this is I will have a great friend at the end.