I hate it when i feel disrespected. I went into my car today to clean it and wash it. went for the windex and the car wash and it was gone. I got so mad, couldnt understand why someone would disrespect me so much as to take something out of my car that didnt belong to them. SO I CALMLY sit in my car listening to some moby, mazzy star and thought. Why did i get so upset over something so stupid. I FELT ATTACKED <> THATS WHY. Cant anyone respect a person belongings.
If it was someone i didnt know i wouldnt expect to much. but from someone that i thought may love me a little bit. thats a darn shame. ABUSE< ANYOTHER WAY OF MESSING WITH MY HEAD> TO REACT TO SOMEONE THAT ISNT WORTH LOOKING AT> I left my husband 4 years ago. i walked away, because i was mentally abused. I knew i would never go back, he is a selfish p. he thinks only of himself. calls me names, why should i go back to that? the problem is he lives next door to me.(shaking my head) I don't know what to do or how to do it. I feel so lost. confused. I feel like i am going to EXPLODE.
Funny how he knows my buttons and which ones he pushes to get to me. i should laugh but i am so mad at the moment . I allowed him to abuse me when i was with him, why do i do it now. i have no ideal. maybe i should just give up. lay down let him walk all over me, is this why God put me here. No........ i wont let him have the last punch. i will smile. and walk away like always. pisses him off more.....for me to do that...lol
Thank you for listening, i feel better now. now off to playing games.....and watching Dr Phil.....
