Messages By: wolfie

i f*** up every one elses lives by being around. i don't do nothing right.  why the f*** do i bother....seriously.

to deal with drunks, and every one else that has it there way but me.

.....there i go again...takeing about what i want again.

still think of you. foxie dearest... i haven't  yet took you picture down since the day you died. i am sure dr phill would say.... move on already.....but you know that family members and loved ones will never leave one's side.  miss you so.  and love you much.

foxie, your passing still hurts. still have your pic on the frige. and on the pc. :)

 

on halloween you did come to me in a dream. and told me you was ok with a meow. :)

peace my sweet  Foxie. love for you will never die.

i looked for that book that dr. phill wrote..... it is just the cook book.... sighs... it ain't helping me any..... since it seems i don't have the money to afford to buy the stuff to go in it.....

i dream of being able to eat the fruit and veggies i need each day..... would be a dream.... i love grapes, apples, pears, oranges... grapefruits. squish,  salads, oh the list goes on.... but can i afford to eat  like this... no.....i miss fruit and veggies.end up doing with out. if we do get fruit and vegies around...  the b/f gets more the first go at it....

so i weigh 250 some thing due to raman noodles and stuff. too much pasta isn't good.... but its cheap.  a pot of lima beans is cheap,  two, three days of them gets old.... but affordable. and some thing to eat. would love to eat better.... but it don't look brite.

ponder this....

 

I work at a site (not here) in a corner of it that  i run the coven.. and on things that matter to me. it is alomost 2 years since i  first joined this one site. i  have  gotten so far yet seems  gone no where. I  have ran this coven for a year of me being a member there. and what do i have to show for it. maube it is the some what feeling i have at the moment of the changeing of the guardsi had to do lately. one of my best people just started her own coven of her own, not only feeling a  lost feeling from that, but the help she was from being there. a knowing i could relay on her.

seeing the show today... tells me to start to help myself in some way to lose some weight.... food stamps can't help me in the food area.... for it can't help me to buy the food that would help.... fresh fruit, i don't get as much as i would like. i do love fruit and veggies.... but it is very expenceive (costly)

how can i eat right if i can't afford it. 210-220 dollars for two people is really not alot. all i say is try to buy  good food with that for one month. for two people.....  it ain't happening....

i would love more fruit and veggies.... and something different than chichen.... or ground beef. we eat ok for two weeks..... and hope for the best the other two weeks.

foods right now is spaggty dinners (i know, not the greatest thing.) tonight we ate beef stew..... not a bad meal... had some veggies in it..... and ground beef as the beef in it.

 

tomorrow night... i don't know what we will have. will take back the comtamated peanut butter for a bag of cat food.... 

of course if any one can help ... let me know.....

smiles apon this day, a day in a day, take time to smell the roses. what if you lost your smell tomorrow.

stop and watch the life that is around. the birds that fly. what if you lost your eyes tomorrow. stop and tell those you love them....what if you died tomorrow, do you know if they know you love them. your life is full of what ifs. yes, look out for tomorrow. but live your life as if it is your last.

and stop and enjoy the world around you. and one by one. every one will see that every one lives a life that is not the same as you.... if they did.... this world would be soo dulll.....lol