Messages By: mariemeece

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

well today is baby ray (buggie) 2 nd birthday 2 years ago today was the day he could couldn't wait to arrive in the world 4 weeks early we have had another set back he had a he a spot on his lumbar spine that turned in to a skin abscessed in 24 hrs then in to mersa . I took him to one local hospital which it didn't go well the man worried me i thought he would cut his spine the way he was lancing the abscessed so i made him stop so He gave us a Rx we went home by Wednesday we had to drive 2 hr to the nearest children's hospital to go through the something again. we have been dealing with this for a week and 4 days now its getting better but slowly. we have had so much bad luck in the last 2 years. i just hope it ends soon. i just cant believe its been 2 years since i had him and delivered him with my daughters help wow this is so strange to even think i we could do that. i just wish Dr Phil do more show on good things like that than the bad stuff. but i still love to watch him

i have had a rought few days well on sept 19 a friend of mine went in to labor had a baby but she gave it up what was should of been a happy time is a very sad time. i just cant imgaine giving up my child i was carrying for 9mo in me its  just sad. then my life is still in pure hell we are still struggling with my sick son i cant work if my ex would just pay his child support it would help. all i have done for 2 days is cry i cant take much more my kids are eating but iam not.. it seems like the fire my life is pure hell and i dont know why.this was my home

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

i loved so much it had so much love and life i keep trying to fing programs to help me rebulid but people like me dont get there dreams made.everytime i look at it i cry. i still have night mares.

well tonight is the last 4 h meeting before the fair i hope the kids pigs make weight. i still have my headache after 2 weeks. still worried about bills can tell the baby is getting sick again. well we have decidecd to try to rebuild our home  this winter after the fire we are going to buy board buy board untill its done will take 5 years. aim so wirrued about bills and food i just wish i could get my ex to pay his child support it  would help me be able feed my kids i cant take much more

well today iam just in a bad mood wondering about bills and if we will get a bigger  house build on this property. and if we will make it throuh all of this. i just cant take much more. i still need supplies for the 4 h projects to be judged on thru. and no more to do it. i have a ex who refuses to pay child support. i just want to cry why cant i get help like i see these other people on tv for a house.the house iam in now since the fire we had to put 3000.00 in here to to live in here and the foundation is falling in. i cant take much more

 

I had another bad dream of a fire like the one before we had our fire last year so iam a nervous werck today. i am just praying nothing bad will happend since to day is diamonds birthday she is 16 years old  :) i just home i can get one wish for all of us we get a new home build i look over the hilll and see the use i loved do much black from the fire when i walk what us eto be my bed room i just cry still. its been almost a year and i still have not healed.