Messages By: ilovetheoc

today was an ok day my mom is mad at me . but then again she is always mad at me for something weather it is for not putting the dishes away properly or leaving a sock on my bedroom floor there is always something to nagg about and it is getting me really upset because she will say mean things like that i'm useless and i will never amount to anything with my attitude and she never focusses on the good things that i've accomplished at school or in cadets and that gets me really upset beause it makes me think that she doesn't care of anything that i do besides doing the dishes and cleaning up my room and it is the same thing with my dad except i don't really tell him anything that i've accomplished because i don't think he would really care or all he will say is "uh huh that's nice " and myparents always make rules for my brother and i but if i break them i will get in trouble but my brother won't and they always bend the rules for him and it's not fair and everytime i try to have a serious conversation about these things they just think i'm joking or they won't listen and i don't know what to do !

atleast 3 nights out of the week i cry and i don't know why and it scares me beceause i don't know why i'm crying and i wish i wasn't because it makes me look weak and i hate feeling weak and i want it to stop !