Christina,
well, since i can't PM you and tell you who it is, then i might as well tell you who it is in front of God and everyone. it's Josh Groban, and he's 24 years old, and has a 27 year-old skinny gf by the name of January Jones. and yes, his fans are of all ages, b/c of his voice and type of music, which is rare with a singer. some of his fans are old enough to be his mother, and even grandmother. some are happily married.
celebrity obsession isn't something new to me. i've obsessed over celebs since i was in elementary school. it only escalated after i got to middle school, when i was well into puberty, and my insecurities were magnified like never before. the kids at school, who dressed better and had more money and friends than me, mercilessly picked on me often, not caring how much it hurt, unless they were gonna get in trouble with the teachers. so that's what made it worse, considering that i was a misfit at school, was that i was obsessed with that teen group HANSON, especially its frontman, Taylor, who had feminine beauty, along with blond hair and blue eyes. before then, i was obsessed with Michael Jackson; it started in the 1st grade, when i was 7. i thought he was the most beautiful man with the best singing voice and dance moves EVER. but that was until HANSON came along in 1997.
they had long, beautiful blond hair, and my hair was about the same length, so i tried doing my hair like theirs, which was more difficult, b/c i'm African-American. back in Feb. of '98 i washed my hair for several days after getting a perm with Pert-Plus shampoo, [the best shampoo i've ever used in my life] which did my hair wonders, so my hair was really soft and had body and movement, so i was really happy. my father was in jail, so they pretty much kept me sane. during that time, i ate, slept, and BREATHED HANSON. i didn't really care about their personal lives, though, b/c i didn't have Internet access, so i couldn't check up on that, plus they were paid to keep mum about their personal lives. plus, i knew for sure they were all single, so i didn't worry about that.
then there was my family, the people who were supposed to love, support, and care for me. my mother treated [and still treats to this day] my older sister better than me, so i assumed that she loved her more than me, and i still do. i'm a middle child, so i often [and still do] get overlooked. my elder and younger sisters always got treated better than me. so you'll have to understand why i would naturally turn somewhere else [material things, looks, and celebs] for happiness, even though i know that those things are only an illusion and don't bring happiness.
i would say more, but that's all i have time for tonight.
-Elicia (Jacquelina)
