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March 4, 2009, 8:11 pm PST
Feeling the exact same way
Quote From: carrie_o_lineI am feeling very alone right now. I used to live here, but then I moved away and now I've been back for two years and I still don't have any true friends. There are a few girls I hang out with at school and some after school acitvities, but they sometimes even talk openly about doing things together or having a sleep over while I'm there and they never include me. I am very shy and I want desperatly to be friends with people who want to be around me, not just people who tollerate me being with them. I've joined clubs and activities, but still have a hard time making friends. I think part of it too is that I'm 16 and I don't like boys, but most girls talk about that a lot, so I don't really join in those conversations and I think sometimes they take it as disintrest in them in general. Sometimes I cry at night because I just want a few close friends to talk to and I have no one. I tell my mom a lot of stuff, but I want people my age to talk to, people my age who will help me with my problems. I don't know what to do anymore and I'm feeling pretty sad a lot of the time because while all of the girls I hang out with at school are hanging out together, no one has invited me to go anywhere (and I'm too shy to invite someone else somewhere) and I'm just stuck at home. I love my family dearly, but I feel like a loner sometimes and I just want friends! Hey im 17 and feel the exact same way you do. In school i have friends, but not really outside. In school my friends always talk about what they did together or their plans for the weekend while im just sitting their putting on a fake smile and just laughing along. Meanwhile I dont get why they never invite me anywhere, in school they seem to really like me but outside of school they forget all about me.
Although i never cry at night, I hide that inside and never show any weakness, which is probably making me more depressed.Ii constantly sit at home depressed thinking of all the things my friends at school are doing and how much fun their having together. And im feeling exactly like you when you say "and I'm too shy to invite someone else somewhere", I dont invite anybody to do anything with me because i fear rejection, and they might think i'm wierd for doing so. So yeah im always stuck at home in my room alone playing xbox live to keep my company. And i couldn't agree with you more when you say "I love my family dearly, but I feel like a loner sometimes and I just want friends!", i just want you know that your not alone, im feeling exactly as you are. I just want friends to do stuff with so im not missing out on my teen years.
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