Quote From: beyondruby If people would understand that you made a promise with God to fulfill this life. By killing your self, you just have to come back and do it all over again. no thanks, ill just try my harest to learn what im sopposed to learn, and then go on, who wants to do it twice.
Please don't take this as a personal attack. I will do my best not to make any assumptions about you or the way you believe. But allow me to explain that no one WANTS to suffer from any degree of depression. It is a feeling that I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. It saddens me to think that some people never get rid of it. I suffered with a mild case considering my situation and it was horrible. There is a feeling of being totally alone inside, I couldn't eat much because the very thought made me sicker and what I did eat I had to force down because I couldn't swollow. I cried non-stop morning and night. There was a severe pain in the pit of my stomach. All of this continued to happen for 1 solid year, then I was finally able to forgive myself somewhat. I still blame myself though. All I wanted was for that sick/empty feeling to go away never to return. Depression is completely involuntary!!! There's absolutely nothing anyone can do to get rid of it except give it time and unfortunely, that still doesn't work for some people. Looking back, I would have much rathered not done the things I did that caused me to lose a cherished friendship. I'm now realizing God allowed those events to take place to reshape me into the new person I am today. I used to let my family walk all over me and was afraid to speak my mind, but not anymore. It also allowed me to continue where I'm going. I made it past the depression, but my friend will forever be in my heart. I'll never stop loving him! Make no mistake, he did not pass away, it just that the situation that occurred came between our friendship. I'm hopeing one of these days we'll get it back.
You said, "If people would understand that you made a promise with God to fulfill this life." You see people who suffer with depression and are suicidal don't think on those terms. The only thing they're thinking about is the fastest solution to their problems. Considering God is a spiritual being, it is difficult and probably next to impossible for them to confide in someone they can't phyically see. God is definitely my Savior, so it's easy for me to trust Him, but I have to admit, when I was in the midst of that depression I was so low that even I found it hard. And for someone that may not know Him, it isn't so easy. That's why we have to be careful in choosing our steps and words, so as to not judge them and send them running in the opposite direction. Let's give them a reason to be curious.
