Quote From: redfeathersI agree. I agree 100%. I've been diagnosed with depression at two different points in my lifetime, and it is anything BUT a "pity party." Believe me, I didn't say anything to anyone about how depressed and worthless I felt, because guess why? I honestly didn't believe that they would GIVE A CRAP. I wasn't looking for pity. I didn't think I even deserved any help, let alone pity. I also tried to kill myself twice. Once by drowning and once by suffocation. Both times failed. And y'know what? I TOLD NO ONE. Didn't think anyone would care. There's some enlightenment for you. Real depression is anything but a damn pity party.
The thing that bugs me is that people who really, honestly want to kill themselves, usually don't say anything, and people who actually do just want attention will wave it around like a firecracker. There's a girl on another forum that I go to, who has been telling us almost every time she posts for about a year that she is going to kill herself, yet she keeps coming back each and every single day to tell us that. I stopped believing her a long time ago. However, the last time I heard about someone who really did kill themselves, their friends and family members kept saying "We didn't see it coming. They seemed fine on the oustide."
So to reiterate myself, people who truely are depressed and want to die usually don't tell anyone because they honestly feel like no one cares at all.
My brother whom was not even a year older than I commiteed suicide on April 23, 1981 at 1am. I will never forget what I was doing and how it has shaped my life then and even today. He was my best friend and you can't ever get that back. My brother told 4 people the day he died that he wanted to. Since he was such a popular man with "everything" no-one believed him. I was at college and he would have never told me because I would have come home and stopped him. I can NOT let people say that the ones who say that they are going to kill themselves that they are only looking for attention. If they are lookiing for attention then something is wrong in their lived and they need it.
My life now will never be the same nor will my brothers or sisters. If you ever wanted to have a sisters or family members view on death. I could surely help you out. I feel very strongly about this subject so call me anytime!!
