As a suicide survivor, my oldest child and only daughter died by suicide 24th Sept 2006. She left behind a 15 yr old son, 3 brothers, 2 sisters, her boyfriend, father and me, her mother. As well as thousands of people who knew her, loved her, and will never be the same. These people, from fans (she was a pro boxer) to friends knew one side of her and her family knew another. Depression is a horrible thing and is easy to cover up. People who take their life to stop the pain are being decieved by the depression.
Suicide doesn't stop the pain it just passes it down to the people that love you and care, whether they say it or not or even act like it at times, there are people who do. Please don't do it to them.
I live with the pain of losing my daughter every day. In the last 2 yrs there is rarely a day I don't have a memory of her short life, 31 yrs, come to mind. It haunts my days and my nights and I am in constant fear now that her son or siblings could do the same. Loss by suicide is inherited. Survivors, those left behind, are at a much higher risk to making the same choice as the person who completes it.
Please don't do this to those around you. While your pain would be over their's will continue and be even worse.
You are in my prayers and my thoughts, I hope you call someone or find someone who can help you get control of your depression.
I love you, God Loves you and wish only the best for you.
Jeannie
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