Replies to '10/29 Gender Confused Children'

So I just finished watching the show and I felt like I should tell my story. I was born a female at birth but want to be a male. I noticed in the 3rd grade that I started noticing females. I just covered it up and presented myself as a female. I come from a Christian family. I was raised in the church wich I am still a member of. When I was at the age around 10, I started to wear my brothers clothes. I liked playing with him bc he played with cars n other boy toys I used to pray that God would make me a boy someday. My mom started noticing that I was wearing my bothers clothes and had a talk with me. Wasn't anything bad but she explained to me that I couldn't wear his clothes because I was a girl. I hid them behind her back afraid of getting in trouble. When my teenage years hit I started wearing my dads clothes. I only played with the boys. I was the neighborhood "tomboy". When I hit my early 20's I started hanging with the "gay" crowd. Of course people started wondering by then. I cut my hair short but only for a few months. I felt like I was viewed different so I let it grow back. One of my close friends and I got in an arguement and she told my mom. She was hurt and angry at the same time. Things were rough for a while but it seemed to smoothe out. I am now 30 yrs old and I still hide it to some degree with my parents. I finally wrote my mom a letter and explained that I liked girls and I was sorry I couln't have the dream life she wanted me to. I feel it brought us closer but we don't discuss it alot. So to the ones tht believe it's the parents fault are wrong. My parents tried their best but I am who I am and that will never change. I went through the whole suicide thoughts because it was so difficult to live in my town. By my upbringing with Christ I knew what was right and wrong. I believe that He loves everyone no moatter who you are!! I pray that one day others wil realize that it is who you are and nothing less. I was born this way. Nothing happen to me to make me feel the way I do Thanks for all the supporters out there. I hope that one day I can finally become a guy and feel comfortable in this society. Sorry for the long post!

So I just finished watching the show and I felt like I should tell my story. I was born a female at birth but want to be a male. I noticed in the 3rd grade that I started noticing females. I just covered it up and presented myself as a female. I come from a Christian family. I was raised in the church wich I am still a member of. When I was at the age around 10, I started to wear my brothers clothes. I liked playing with him bc he played with cars n other boy toys I used to pray that God would make me a boy someday. My mom started noticing that I was wearing my bothers clothes and had a talk with me. Wasn't anything bad but she explained to me that I couldn't wear his clothes because I was a girl. I hid them behind her back afraid of getting in trouble. When my teenage years hit I started wearing my dads clothes. I only played with the boys. I was the neighborhood "tomboy". When I hit my early 20's I started hanging with the "gay" crowd. Of course people started wondering by then. I cut my hair short but only for a few months. I felt like I was viewed different so I let it grow back. One of my close friends and I got in an arguement and she told my mom. She was hurt and angry at the same time. Things were rough for a while but it seemed to smoothe out. I am now 30 yrs old and I still hide it to some degree with my parents. I finally wrote my mom a letter and explained that I liked girls and I was sorry I couln't have the dream life she wanted me to. I feel it brought us closer but we don't discuss it alot. So to the ones tht believe it's the parents fault are wrong. My parents tried their best but I am who I am and that will never change. I went through the whole suicide thoughts because it was so difficult to live in my town. By my upbringing with Christ I knew what was right and wrong. I believe that He loves everyone no moatter who you are!! I pray that one day others wil realize that it is who you are and nothing less. I was born this way. Nothing happen to me to make me feel the way I do Thanks for all the supporters out there. I hope that one day I can finally become a guy and feel comfortable in this society. Sorry for the long post!