I am near the point of emotionally breaking down. I am just like a sponge absorbing all this pain and nothing squeezes out. I have felt very hopeless to the point where i would lay in the woods just waiting to starve to death while yelling at God. I know alot is my fault but my mistakes are routed from issues that are not my fault. I need help but my job and ambition crumbles shortley and then there is no help. i look at what i want out of life and it is being stolen because i don't have a way to grow and deal with my problems. i feel like just walking until i vanish this life because i'm just a bother for my family and it seems like i'm becoming a ghost any way. My suicide is half hearted but i know if i don't find help i won't become the man i want to be and i may get worse and end up hopeless then desperate on the street and eventually dead.
Take a deep breath and know that each of us at one time or another have been where you are. I used to be angry for awhile, and then learned that it was because I was frustrated with an angry world all the time. But I can't change anyone, but I can change myself. Lower my expectations to a more manageable level and create short term goals instead of huge ones that will never get met. It made a world of difference.
Life is too damn short to be angry all the time, and as you get older time passes to damn fast...*S* One day at time...it will get you through each day alot more calmer than you know....*S*
I wish you well..and know that you are not alone in this frustrating world. You can only live one day at a time, and only deal with one problem at a time. Being overwhelmed will chew you up and spit you out if you don;t learn to take a deep breath once in awhile....*S*
Take a deep breath and know that each of us at one time or another have been where you are. I used to be angry for awhile, and then learned that it was because I was frustrated with an angry world all the time. But I can't change anyone, but I can change myself. Lower my expectations to a more manageable level and create short term goals instead of huge ones that will never get met. It made a world of difference.
