Replies to 'Pregnancy Loss'

I am here. I dotn remember talking to you but i was on the old board. I was always in the infertility room......Whats going on? If you need to talk, i am here. Im living in Turkey now so there is a big time difference. I dont know where you are but i am 10 hours ahead of CAlifornia. Thats where i used to live....I hope everything works out for you.....

 

Mrs. Ryan

 

 I am from the old board to. I haven't been on in a long time so to see the new board is a little bit confusing but I am getting the hang of it. I lost two boys. Thomas would have been 7 years old on the 22nd of July and Kyle would have been 6 years old on the 24th of June. They are my little angels. And I miss them dearly. I'll be around. I have to get ready for work now so I'll be here tomorrow.

Hi Jenna, I was on the old board too.  I lost my baby on April 12 last year, whilst my husband was at his ex-girlfriends engagement party.  I am in a different situation to you, I already have two beautiful children ( I cant imagine my life without them) and have been married for nearly 6 years.  Three months after I had the miscarriage my sister-in-law announced she was pregnant.  She is actually due today.  I get so sad when I see people with babies and always wonder why that isn't me.  Our baby would have been due on our 5th Wedding anniversary.  I desperately want another baby but my husband is adamant he doesn't want one - he says we already have a boy and a girl why would we want another one?  I have even though about going against my better judgment and just getting pregnant, but I know what that would do to our relationship and my family is way too important to me to risk it.  My kids deserve a good family life.  I wont do anything to ruin it for them.  When I found out I was pregnant and told my husband he was furious.  He screamed and cursed at me for an hour and told me I had to "fix" it.  Abortion is not an option for me.  In the end he screamed we cant do this and left.  Two weeks later I lost the baby and I blame him for it.  I was under so much stress I think my body couldn't handle it.  My mother in law is currently staying with us while we wait for my sister-in-law to have the baby, I am so sick of hearing about how wonderful its going to be.  I wish I could be happy for them but I cant.  I am so jealous it make me cry.    I know I should get over it but I just don't know how.  If you need to talk I am hear too, there are so many people going through this and sometimes its easier to let it all out to strangers. 

My name is Amber and I am new to the board, but I lost my first child two months ago, because of a bacterial infection left untreated and I would be more than happy for someone to talk to at this point.