Quote From: diamondcaI am a 57 year old agoraphobic, diabetic, parasite trapped in my home with no social life.
I feel helpless & hopeless. I have a loveless, sexless marriage with no friends, family, or
children & a shrink that I've been seeing for over 26 years & is no longer productive for me.
He misses phone appointments (without a call from his receptionist), talks about his problems
and has ADHD so he's usually not paying attention to my needs when I talk. He also no longer
offers positive suggestions or direction. My abusive parents passed away about a year ago.
My best friends who gave me a precious gift (teaching me sign language & accepting me
as I am) passed away just a few months before my parents. I am not dealing well with these
and other grief/loss issues.
It seems that I have been in this deteriorating state for a very long time. The pain is relentless & never ending. I am living my childhood nightmares and suffer extensively from loneliness & isolation. I've been told that I have to stay alive but are never told what I am supposed to be living for.
Is my life over already?
Live for you. Your grief and loss are real, and you need to find coping mechanisms for this. I really think that finding a new psychiatrist, who is focused on helping patients and not whinging about himself. This will help you a lot. I suggest a female. Your life is far from over, it is just hard. Hang in there, the sun will shine.
