Quote From: mussymelWell done on starting to reach out to your dad. I go along with what Momisme says, I am really really proud of you. These steps are never easy to take but you are a very very brave young woman and we all want to see you out of the situation you are in.
I also wanted to say that I'm sorry for saying that you are messed up. I didn't really mean it that way, what I meant is that at the moment you have a lot of bad stuff going on and sometimes when you are in a situation like that you can make something look better than it is, if that makes any sense. So I'm really sorry if I hurt your feelings by saying that. I actually think you sound quite grounded for someone your age and what you have said since about Ryan seems like you know what you are doing. You and your brothers deserve a chance to be happy. Ufortunatly your mother isn't helping you but hopefully your dad will. Even aside from everything else you should get the chance to know your dad.
Again well done. I think you are really strong and you will make it.
Hey thanks Mussymel. By the way, you didn't offend me or anything by saying I was messed up. I understand what you meant. But sometimes I do feel messed up (not the way you meant it but like really messed up). Most of the time I don't know what I'm doing and I usually make alot of mistakes before I realize how to do things right. Even with Ryan..... I don't know what I'm doing but I know what I don't want to do. Hopefully I'm doing the right thing when it comes to him at least I think I am. The last guy I had a "sexual" relationship with (willingly)... well it was a HUGE mistake and definitely illegal... and it took me a while to understand that. But I'm learning, I guess.
As for my dad.... yeah I think my brothers and I should get a chance to know him, I feel like my mom kept us from him.... well she did, but that's another story. Anyway, he really wants to know the truth and I feel like I'm hurting him by not telling him the whole truth. He's willing to go through the whole legal process of taking us from our mother but I think that would be wrong... when I could easily just tell him the truth and go live with him and all..... I don't know..... Well, I gotta go. L8ter.
Oreo
