Quote From: yuktoniskfor the longest time i thought i would be lost with out my ex we dated for three years, we where " in love". We broke up due to him not being loyal with me. emotionally and physical. and i did not want to be with someone who was not going to stay loyal.
After he and i broke up i was a wreak. For a while too, but i started seeing a long time friend and he and i hit it off well. After a year of being together he asked me to marry him.I said yes, but here was the thing. I could not see my self with him forever.In the end i left him, he was as well controlling, over baring, insecure to an unhealthy level. I needed out of the relationship. He was bringing me down.
It has been about 5 months since him, have not spoke but one time since. But the whole time i was with him, i always wondered if i wanted my ex more.. i slept with my first again after me and my ex fiance. it felt so wrong. i know now, it was not right.
I am with a wonderful man now, he is perfect for me, and i cant wait to marry him. We live together ,moved in recently. And i would not want it any other way.
Our bodies actually release chemicals that create that puppy love, head over heels sensation. It's like a drug and is natural for a person to want to keep recapturing that rush.
But the fact of the matter is the rush wears off eventually.
And only then can you really know what type of love you have for the one you fell in love with.
I hope you keep falling in love with this wonderful man over and over and over for the rest of your life. I believe it is possible, but don't go down the same path that has already brought you divorce. In one sense we cannot trust our own reactions, but there is something deep, deep down that is a stronger vibe than love potion. You'll know the difference then between your past and what you desire for your future; and there will literally be no comparison because you cannot feel it the way you feel the butterflies. And you will keep falling in deeper and deeper, if you let yourself do more than feel.
