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yeah...  I used to put my hair in a really tight pony tail right after washing it because I thought it would make me look less attractive.  Yet I didn't see myself as attractive in the way I saw some people did and I didn't want it.  I don't do that now.  I actually cut my hair off so I couldn't.  Well, I didn't jus6t cut it for that reason.  I once began to discover me and I was becoming more confident in that girl and learning more to love her and then she sufficated.  Anyway this is about you.  Did you feel as if your dad was what helped make you like was he that one person you had??  I hope my question is really what i am asking!  haha!!  if I said it right.... oh i am 27

The pain of losing a parent is hard and it take a very long time to heal, if ever, really.

 

My mom died two years ago too and I notice a lack of interest in maintenance. I still dress nice, take showers, shop for pretty things, but inside I feel like a hollow shell. The facade is starting to fade and I am beginning to feel like I am weakening; giving up.

 

I also know better.

 

I know that sometimes we have to go real low in order to see the gift that is being given to us, albeit in a package wrapped not to our liking. I know that all humans suffer with loss of parents, children, friends, there will be those that lose a  parent today, or tomorrow. There is so much suffering but we are never alone in our suffering.

 

The one thing I notice now, that mom is gone, is my looks don't seem to matter now. She was the one that always told me I was beautiful, sexy, smart. Now, I have remind myself every now and again. We must go on and be as confident and secure without our confidents and security blanket. In this, we find ourselves.

 

Peace.