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October 28, 2005, 11:00 am PDT
10/28 Addicts Transformed
Quote From: nanciwestI think your "tweekmama" signature says it all! If you don't need to say you are addicted, but if it helps you get through the day... I'd say you have a BIG problem. My son wasn't too bad for the first 10 years of being a "tweeker" It was the next 10 years that took a toll on his brain. He is now in prison. During those first 10 years, I thought he could turn it around... but he choose to continue down the path, into a world I never imagined would exist for him.
You are kidding yourself if you think you don't have a problem. I'm sure the reason you wrote in the first place is because deep down you KNOW something is wrong. You "snap at your kids" and you husband "don't know". Sounds like a recipe for disaster.
GET SOME HELP NOW WHILE YOU STILL HAVE BRAIN CELLS AVAILABLE! You cannot be a "super Mom" on crank!!! Take it from someone who knows. I have been clean for 11 years now but once thought I couldn't make it through the day without my " vitamin C". I thought I was getting so much accomplished but then I would sleep for days and the whole cycle of cleaning and organizing would start over again. I am so fortunate that I have my children and they are not suffering anymore from my addiction. They know what it was like. I would forget to feed them because I wasn't hungry. I would snap and yell at them and the hours I spent looking for the next high, spinning my wheels. What a waste!!! And you always have to worry about getting caught!!! Please get some help. With the good Lord and a good 12 step group it can be done!!! Also, my last selling point to get clean is I now suffer from heart disease and I know that doing years of crank did not help my heart. I am now on oxygen 24 hours a day. Do your kids a favor and get clean but mostly for yourself. It is the greatest gift you can give yourself.
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