Quote From: zapatasredto labelfree-Your story is very interesting,not boring at all. My family has a lot of perfectionists,probably including me!! But I've learned to lighten up quite a bit!!! It can help sometimes but not if its the "stepford wife " type of thing. I once attended a funeral where the relatives (ours) not on my side of the family, made everyone call the same florist so all the flowers would match !!!!!I thought it was a bit much! Congratulations on the weight change! Oh,I know someone who helped clean her son and daughter in laws cupboards with a toothbrush when they moved into their new place:>) She's improving, though. Well, this show should be interesting. Should hear some interesting stuff on the message boards.
but there is more...Then I married him....He started telling me after nine years how to dress when I lost my weight..how to think..what I should say when we were out with are friends...breaking down my confiedence...It was him and the whole rest of the whole rest of the world thought this way against me...how could I possibly fight that sceneriaro...I started doubting my own true voice....I started chip chip chipping away inside....
He wont let me wear my hair up he makes remarks like oh what are you going to take a shower? Hw hates red hair because his grandmother has red hair and she was mean to them I personally love red hair so God forbid get get red highlights in my Auburn hair jello inside me. Axiety attack. If he knew he I wrote this he would say oh there sho goes over reating again....but I swear on MY GRANDMOTHERS GRAVE THE WOM<AN WHO I LOVED move than anyone else on this planet I speak the 100 percent truth!
Things go in cycles here. He advised me and I am looking forward to it he is going hunting for Thanksgiving going away for a week with his Father and his cousins in West Virgina..He is always nicer. He hasnt been Hunting for many years. This is something he loves. Im glad for him. He was gone yesterday he worked a second job and then he went to play his bass guitar at a bar last night I finally stood up for myself and said I wasnt going...why? I no longer drink and I no longer smoke so why why would I put myself in a negative enviroment...I said NO I was not going... My first steps to me!
