Replies to '12/30 The Stepford Family'

but there is more...Then I married him....He started telling me after nine years how to dress when I lost my weight..how to think..what I should say when we were out with are friends...breaking down my confiedence...It was him and the whole rest of the whole rest of the world thought this way against me...how could I possibly fight that sceneriaro...I started doubting my own true voice....I started chip chip chipping away inside.... 

He wont let me wear my hair up  he makes remarks like oh what are you going to take a shower?  Hw hates red hair  because his grandmother has red hair and she was mean to them  I personally love red hair so God forbid get get red highlights in my Auburn hair  jello inside me.  Axiety attack.  If he knew he  I wrote this he would say oh there sho goes over reating again....but I swear on MY GRANDMOTHERS GRAVE THE WOM<AN WHO I LOVED move than anyone else on this planet I speak the 100 percent truth! 

Things go in cycles here.  He advised me and I am looking forward to it  he is going  hunting for Thanksgiving going away for a week with his Father and his cousins in West Virgina..He is always nicer.  He hasnt been Hunting for many years.  This is something he loves.  Im glad for him.  He was gone yesterday he worked a second job  and then he went to play his bass guitar at a bar last night  I finally stood up for myself and said I wasnt going...why?  I no longer drink  and I no longer smoke so why  why would I put myself in a negative enviroment...I said NO  I was not going...  My first steps to me!