Quote From: recovery99I was so relieved to read your post. I love watching the Dr. phil show, but....I just left my second treatment center that I have been in this year. Anorexia is so glorified on TV...seeing the bones is a huge trigger for me. It seems like TV shows flash pictures of the worst cases on TV and quote weights up and down. here is my thought.....if you wouldn't ask or post the weights of "normal" people (because it is considered RUDE), why in the world would anyone post and talk about the weight of a person who is obviously more sensitive about it than the average population? I feel pulled to watch the show, but am scared to death of being triggered into relapse. I am already holding on for my life as it is....I wish that someone would do a show about anorexia and bulemia without focusing on pictures of people at their sickest. The public already seems to think that eating disorders are about food. Dr. Phil says that you can't fix money problems with money. I say you can't fix anorexia with food. If only he could say that....
On a better note, the author of Life Without Ed will be on the show, and that is the best book I've ever read about eating disorders. It's as if the author has climbed into my head and written all of my thoughts on paper.
Yes, people that do not have anorexia really a lot of times do not understand how we become triggered hearing about or seeing someone at a really low weight. I've never read Life Without ED, but I will try to do so. I am trying to lose weight now. I know it's not for the 'best,' but I feel so lost without it. Plus, my pants are tight and no sense having to buy new ones when I'd be happier skinnier, right?
I hope that all of us wouldn't feel the need for this in our lives. It's just something to focus on and be in control over. I am so scared of growing up. I am 20, and I just cannot imagine growing old, alone, and........I'm going to cry. I love God, but I hate myself- what an ironic situation.
