Quote From: mmast55Hi Kathy...Thought I'd drop ya a quick line and tell ya a little about myself. I have been dealing with anxiety since 81. I was agoraphobic for 10 years. Tried MANY things to deal with it. Finally started taking Prozac in 90, which helped tremendously! I still struggle with general anxiety disorder. I'm 50, never been married, have no children. Some of my family live close by, but they have never been helpful. Quite the opposite, judging and criticizing, and just thinking I'm weird. They are very toxic for me to be around. I guess you could say I'm a bit of a loner. I have a small cleaning business and have currently been taking care of seniors. Sorry to say, one man just passed away in August and the woman I was taking care of, I had to quit that job because of her ECCENTRIC daughter. So currently I'm just cleaning and need to build that up again. I had quit alot of jobs because I had started working pretty much full time for the woman. We were really close. Her GOOFY daughter interfered big time! Still have alot of anger toward the daughter! Can you tell? Any way, I currently have way too much time on my hands. Not having enough work keeps me at home too much and by myself. Not good. I get pretty squirrely when I spend too much time by myself. This is where the anxiety comes in. Don't have any friends, so no where to go and nothing to do! Not much fun doing things by myself...Scared to try new things. TIRED of trying! I know I can't afford to think negative....so I'll get off that line. Gotta keep trying, the alternative is worse! Anyway, I guess that's it for now.....Would you rather correspond by E-mail? I don't think it's a problem to put address on print? Take care.....Mary
Wanted to get back to you yesterday, I could'nt get alone time. I know how it is to feel lonely, bored, nothing to do, no freinds. I have one that I can talk on the phone to, I dont talk to her that much though once in a while ,we never see eachother. She is a freind from my teenage years. Our lives just got seperated when this panic-agoraphobia hit me. I always have someone here in the house with me. My son or daughter, when my husband is working. I babysit one of my grandsons and my neighbors baby. I still get depressed, and feel like I'm locked inside myself. I have trouble sleeping . Even that isn't an out or rest for me!
Well I live in NY near Albany. Where are you? Kathy