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November 4, 2005, 10:12 pm PST
I apologize in advance
Quote From: flod1958I watched the show today. I can totally relate to Bridget, I am not as bad as her though. Thank God! But, I do understand where she is coming from. I shop so that I do not feel my pain. I get distracted from reality, I realize this. I go into my comfort zone during a shop spree. I also have been in debt, and once again I am charging on cards, that I had stopped before. Did anyone understand why Dr. Phil thought that getting a job was not a solution? I am told daily to get a full-time job. Because then I will not be so bored. What do you think? I know that it is a way to escape. I know all that. But, how do I stop? I am on meds. for depression, because I am in mourning for the lose of my younger sister, and also for not being able to have children. I do not want to feel the pain, so for just a moment when I shop, I have gone to another place where I am unaware, painless, numb. Any advise anyone? Who should I talk to, what type of support or doctor? What to do? My husband has had enough with my spending money, my family are very concerned as to why I do what I do. Really, I feel nothing, I am completely numb. I live with a both Crohn's disease and arthrithis. My Crohn's showed up when I was 29 and the arthrithis showed up when I was 33. I lost our only son at birth and was unable to have more children. I take medicine everyday for my chronic illnesses and some days I require pain killers as well. Do I get depressed? You bet I do, right about this time every year, as the anniversary of our son's death is approaching. How to I cope? Well I am lucky that I have a great husband who puts up with me and also happens to love me to pieces. Numbing the pain doesn't make it go away. Everyone was dealt a hand in life and yes some of us with dealt really bad hands. But play the hand you were dealt the best you can. I fight through the bad days, to get to the good days. Find something you like to do OTHER than shopping. My husband and I like to go fishing and go to minor league hockey games. We also enjoy cooking together. My husband is my rock and I thank God for him on a daily basis. Remember no one else can MAKE you happy. You have to find some happiness and make the best of it. If this is overly harsh, I do apologize.
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