Replies to 'Overcoming Grief'

i gave a daughter up for adoption 26 years ago .  she commited sucide in 1996. i just in the last 5 years found out . the parents did not want me to know.  then they wouldnt tell me the location of the cementry.  i know it wasnt my fault, but it was.. i feel that if i had of done things differently that she would still be here.  i strugle with this every day and night..  i hear a song that makes me think about her and here i go again. like  how do you get so lonley.   by blake larson.  it just tears me up.. like the song how could i not know... did i not tell her i loved her... know what i didnt. i couldnt even hold her because i knew if i did i would never let her go..  she did deserve better than what i could of ever give her.  i guess i should get over it and let it go but i cant .. i did not ever get to tell her why and that i did love her more than i could ever imangion.. this was the hardest thing i ever had to do was give her a chance. if i had known that my life would of turned out like it did i would never let her go. but i didnt ever see things going any where but where i was at . i was too young to realize that thing do change if you push and try and luck up. but i still blame myself. i will never know her and never see her that is my fault.. i can not get over it i cant talk to any one about this no one hardly knows that i could trust and would understand. it is just one of those things that i have to go alone like the day i signed papers.. the worst day in my life.. just one day at a time......