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January 25, 2006, 12:26 pm PST
i relate to your addiction
Quote From: simp022004I just found out that I am positive for Hepatitis C. I should not be shocked. I am 3 months into a drug free life. It has been over a year since I have used a needle. I never thought that I would ever get sick. You know at the time it was just for fun, I didn't have a problem. Silly me thought I would never get anything like this. I have wanted to go back and get that high again. However that is not the way to deal with this. I am still reeling from the diagnosis. I still have many tests that I will have to do. I feel like I have to be the stupidest person on the planet. I shared a needle with someone. What was I thinking? I was not. I was just looking for a good time. Now I am sick forever.
It was over ten years ago when a youth pastor told me that, God will forgive you for anything, but that does not mean that you are free from the consequences of your sin. It never made any since until now. I know he forgives me for being so careless with the body he gave me. But as I learned over a decade ago, I will reap what I have sown. I am very afraid about what will happen next. I have no idea how I will survive this. But I have 3 girls & a husband who need me to do well. I hope I am strong enough. I do have the disease of ADDICTION. Thank god thats the only dz I have. So I can relate to you in that sense. You said your 3 months into your new drug free live. CONGRATS to you. You go girl. I have 3 years in my sobriety. And life is soooo much better. Ya it was freakin hard at first, but much worth it. And my 3 children & husband are very worth it as well. They need me & i sure the hell need them. My kids are 18months, 6 years & 81/2 years. I am very involved with AA. I go twice a week. One of those days are helping run the AA for teen-age boys who are incarserated. I hope your doing AA or NA for yourself to. Becuz you can't do it alone. Thinking of you ! Good luck!
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