Quote From: ltl_snblI read most of the stories on here and felt like talking about mine. I was in a relationship for about a year and a half. I know that isn't long for most people, but for me it was since I had been in a bad marriage a few years ago. I felt this guy was the most wonderful man in the world. Him and I had been talking about marriage. I knew in my heart that we would be together and nothing could come between us. We lived in the same town but because of his job we could go days without seeing each other. For the last 6 months of our relationship he was in another town for a school, the day before I was suppose to fly down for his graduation he broke up with me. The man did it over the internet, no phone call or anything like that. His excuse was that the distance was getting to him and he felt like he was rebounding. My friends and those around me tell me in need to move on and that I need to realize that it wasn't meant to be. In the 2 months since he broke up with me I have lost close to 15 pounds, which I didn't need to lose, one of my friends the other day told me I am starting to look anorexic. Some days I feel like I need to move on and should be looking for someone else, but there are many days when all I want to do is cry. Everyone who sees me, sees me smiling and pretending everything is fine but I know that part of me still wants to see him and have him in my life. To make matters harder I have 2 kids from my marriage, not with him, that thought he was the greatest and I feel like they think it is my fault that the relationship ended. I am at a point where I don't even know what to do. Sorry for rambling on like this, I am hoping this will help me work through my feelings.
I'm sorry to hear that what is happening in your life is affecting you so much that you are unable to eat, and it is impacting on your health. I have no real useful advise at the moment, but only wanted to say that i'm so sorry that you are sad, and that i do the same thing myself when it comes to putting on a brave face.
I'm so so sorry, and i am sad too that we haven't found it easy in our lives to have the self esteem required to be in relationships we deserve.
I don't even know if i'll keep reading these message boards anymore because i find it so depressing that there are so many men out there who follow a common trend of unfaithfulness, lack of committment and abuse. I may be naive, but i grew up believing that people are essentially good, and that finding someone to love you is what we deserve.
