Quote From: chikara1My younger sister had to terminate a pregnancy because she was given a chemotherapeutic agent in the first trimester. It was a horrendous decision for her. Then, in a subsequent pregnancy, she had to terminate because of devastating fetal abnormalities. Once again, she wanted that baby so much. It was just awful and I can still hear the wounded animal sounds of her crying.
You must not keep second-guessing yourself. First of all, it does you no good and you can't change anything. Secondly, you did what you had to do and you must accept that. Focus instead on the love that you have for your baby and hold that love in your heart forever. Let that love heal you so you can stop beating yourself up. I understand that there was a part of you that died along with that baby. Let that part of yourself rest in peace now. Let that part be in your heart, forever holding hands with your baby. And then let the rest of yourself live and love.
I hope you are strengthened knowing that other people are praying for your peace.
hi
thanks soooo much for the comforting words and advice. for the most part, i have done everything you adviced and spoken about but, it's that one part of me that is unsettled. i do love my family very much and thank god everyday for victoria. it's soothing (in some way) knowing that i'm not the only one. thanks again holly (poot567)