Replies to 'Fears, Phobias and Anxiety Disorders'

Quote From: texmike

Hi, I am 1 of many who probably have been dealing with the fears and phobias that this illnes has attached its self to. I once was a very outgoing person who loved to do things by his self and loved the outdoors. I started having these panic attacks and getting to be agoaphobic back when I thought I had it all. My world stoped being so large and I went from being one that had it all to one that thinks he has nothing. This has caused me to loose 2 relationships and has put me in a place I never wanted to be. I dont like taking meds because of how they make me feel. People say they dont understand why someone could end there own life because they do, but some people I guess would rather stop the Insanity that this causes. Its hard to deal with sometimes but u keep goin and hope 1 day u wake up and its all been a bad dream and u can go back to being the person u once was. Life is hard enough to deal with without something like this to cope with to, but it happens to the best of us. We must go on and hope that we get over this. I get really frustrated because I want to get better but it either costs a fortune or they say to get help you must be ready to or are going to hurt yourself or someone. I have tryed to get help and they say only if you are able to pay. If your dealing with this and u cant drive, hold down a job and u have very little income coming in how are u to get the help u need ? If i could get back to me and I could hold down a good job then I could pay for it. but I guess if u dont have no money and you've lost everything becaue of the illness ur out of luck.I've been searching for answers for along time and still none. Noone wants to no how to help thats close to u because they don't understand. People say oh just get overv it and go on. I wish I could.I dont want something for nothing but I still have alot to give to this world if I only could. I just want to be able to have a normal life and not one of fear. I no that there are diseases that cant be cured and that I understand but this is one I think can, if people who no how to help those of us that do have this illnes only would. I understand everone has to make a living but for those of us that cant work a normal job how are we supposed to get the help.I am so ashamed and imbarressed of myself for being who I have become . If anyone no's where or how I can get help for this I really would appriciate the help, more than u no.If iI have said anything here to hurt or make someone think thats life is bad I'm sory. ife is great and is intended to be shared and lived to its fullest. I no somewhere ther is hope and help and I will kep lokig for it. We al have to hold on and kep the trust that god wil put some answers infront of us to make us better people.We have made it this far and maybe oneday when we get better we can help someone else.