Quote From: kmarie225When I was young, my sisters and their friends had a seance in our house and used the weedge board alot. I was not religious growning up and don't believe in God or the Devil or evil spirits or angels. But as time has gone by, I have thought that I am cursed. My mother was the 20th child of 22 born to the same parents and has had a hard, uneducated life, caught in the 'cycle of abuse'. So I feel that if her parents would have only had a few kids and her not be born, in turn I would not be here or my children and grandchildren, I wouldn't have all of the bad things happen to me and maybe my husband would have had a better life. We have never had good luck of any kind. I am grateful to have a roof over my head, a job to help with financially and a husband that is caring and not abusive in any way. But I feel guilty because I feel cursed and he could have done better without me. I feel cursed because we never seem to be able to get ahead. Everytime I save alittle money and get caught up on bills, something else comes up and there goes the savings. I recently lost my job and took the first part time job that was offered just to keep money coming in. My husband had an injury at work five years ago and has never really recovered fully. He is currently back in a doctors care. He has kept his job through all the pain and days missed, he has suffered with this injury and still keeps going. Our oldest daughter and her husband lost their house due to medical bills and moved in with us, our middle daughter is getting divorced after five years of marriage, our son keeps losing jobs due to his asthma and our youngest daughter has missed more school in the last four years than she's been there. No doctor can tell us why, she's been tested for alot of things and they keep telling us there is nothing wrong with her. Our oldest daughter, her husband, my husband, our son and myself all have different forms of arthritis I also have Menires Disease and our oldest daughter is on many medications for other physical problems. We live from paycheck to paycheck and are always one step from being homeless.I know people have hardships and ups and downs in life, but I think we've had more than our share. I called a debt consolidation place to lump my bills and get them paid off and they gave me a monthly quote that I couldn't possibly afford. I can't get a consolidation loan because I don't own anything but an old car. I really don't know how people make it in this world and I'll be glad when I'm old and my life is over. Don't suppose I could have a do over? karen
KAREN,
DON'T YOU DARE GIVE UP ON YOURSELF OR YOUR LIFE.
THERE IS A SCRIPTURE THAT SAYS "AS A MAN THINKETH IN HIS HEART SO IS HE"
IF YOU THINK POOR, OLD, DEPRESSED, NEVER GONNA HAVE ANYTHING GOOD HAPPEN TO ME, THEN THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT YOU WILL HAVE.
POVERTY, DEPRESSION, NO SUCCESS. ((((AND I KNOW YOU DON'T WANT THAT.)))
PLEASE READ THE BOOK "YOUR BEST LIFE NOW" BY PASTOR JOEL OLSTEEN. IT IS EXACTLY WHAT YOU NEED. HOW DO I KNOW? I WAS JUST LIKE YOU, I NEEDED TO RENEW MY MINDSET AND HOW I SAW MY LIFE. THE BOOK IS EASY READING, NEVER CONDEMNING AND NOT PREACHY IT JUST HELPS TO CLEAR YOUR MIND, SO YOU CAN SEE THE GOOD.
GOOD IS COMING YOUR WAY, IF YOU BELIEVE IT.
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