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January 14, 2006, 6:06 am PST
Your twin in the US
Quote From: salesrepHi, I'm from Australia on the west coast. Female mid 40's, married with kids. I've been struggling with excessive binge drinking for several years and have made a complete fool of myself on more than one occasion. I now have retreated from friends and just stick to myself, my husband is now helping me to get over drinking, am seeing doctor and doing all the things I should to quit. But I still feel as if I want to be able to have the couple of glasses a night without over indulging. I find it hard to face a life of never having a drink again. I quit smoking 10 years ago and have never had one since, it was like losing my best friend. The same is now applicable to drinking. My parents were alcoholic also. I am not a happy person, take anti-depressants and often wonder why? Is there anybody else who knows what I am feeling or would like to correspond.
Wow, you sound almost identical to me! I live in the US, am 47, female, happily married for 18 years, and am in the same situation. I think there is one difference, though...my disease is a bit further along than yours. You sound like me, maybe 5 years ago. That makes sense, because you are a few years younger. PLEASE be careful with your drinking. People told me so many times that alcoholism is an insidious disease that NEVER goes away and ALWAYS gets worse. Yours will also. Your disease will progress and eventually kill you. Sorry to sound so grim. I have finally realized that I HAVE to get sober or die. Maybe not this year or this decade, but it will take me if I don't stop. If you ever have read or listened to how alcoholics meet their demise, the scene is not pretty. I love to drink, and it is so very difficult to give it up. But I want to live a quality life and stop making a fool of myself. Believe me, being in your mid 40's and thinking you are "cool" or "cute" when you drink (like I always did) is so far from the truth. You are no longer the 'life of the party', but rather the 'old town drunk' when in public. You say that you are reclusive. That says to me that you are hiding your disease and would rather live with the bottle than socialize with friends and family. Do your hubby a favor and get help-I think he (and you) will be so much happier. Good luck.
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