Replies to 'Bulimia'

I know this can be a tough time. I've found lots of information and help through the website www.nationaleatingdisorders.org. If you aren't seeing a professional already, you may be able to find one to help you through that site. The best decision you can make is to help yourself by seeking professional help. All the best to you in yours (and everyones) road to recovery.

I completely understand how you are feeling. I too developed an eating disorder at a very young age and I am also turning 24 in a few months. I have decided to go to college September as well. I have been through all the same symptoms of an eating disorder as you have, and have been treated for an eating disorder in an eating disorder treatment program at 2 different local hospitals with very little improvements in my eating behaviours and thinking patterns. I realized something very significant this year, I have spent 10 years of my life wasted on an eating disorder. A disorder that has done nothing good for me physically, spiritually or emotionally. I have hurt myself, my soul and my heart more than i can even imagine and if I want a fighting chance at a successful future for myself then right now in this moment is when I decide to change myself, my thoughts and attitudes and my behaviour FOREVER. If I don't do this now, I will never be able to be successful in college or in my chosen career. If I hold on to this eating disorder I will never be able to experience the kind of life and the kind of peace I dream about. I started my 3rd attempt at treatment in a different treatment program at another hospital where I live and I can tell you from first hand experience.....it does get better, it can get better..you can live the life you've imagined if you only learn to trust and love your body. One day at a time, one foot in front of another...it isn't easy in the beginning..but it will get better with time. Each day I get closer to living my dreams...each day I find a new peace inside of myself. I truly have learned the hard way, after years of damage to my body and my mind, i am finally learning to let go of my eating disorder step by step. I think you just have to make the first step of seeking help and ACCEPTING help and trusting the professionals to help you with this.  Trust me, I completely understand how difficult your life has been and how much heart wrenching pain you are experiencing and have already experienced. All I ask is that you do seek help and accept the help that is given to you. I know your eating disorder wants to fight anything that is good and is right for you...but you have to fight even harder to stay alive and take care of yourself. I wish you nothing but the best for yourself..and I pray that you will find the help you need.