Quote From: lonesomeI am gonna get out with this whole thing, i just need to get hold of a therapist first, i will need some one to get me through what ever is gonna happen. I think they are gonna tell me to get over it, it was long time ago. They are constantly carring on about me being single and not in a relationship, now my mom is trying to set me up with some one, makes me very angry. What do they think? I am not a goldfish with a memory of seven seconds, i remember, i actually remember everything. I cant forget at all. I know what it is to feel dirty believe me. Shower doesnt help. I know that too. Is there actually anything that helps? I like talking to you people that have lots more experience than me and that are around longer than me, in hope i dont really believe, this past weekend was terrible for me again, if it wasnt for my one friend i dont want to think where everything could have turned. to me she is the reason i hold out. She is the best person ever. I wish there were more of her in this world. But you definately help too, alot
Hey Lonesome,
i am so sorry that your having a rough time of it. You never get over it. my therapist realizes that i cant deal with too much right now. So she is not pushing the subject. i confronted one of my cousins about what happened and he remembers it being done to me. the next day i exploded. at the bank lady. I couldnt help it. It all came back and i was 11 and now i am 39. So my therapist said that that was a natural response to what i went thru. Could of fooled me. I was such a witch to that banker. and all because of the anxieity and hate that i was feelinig toward my cousin who didnt tell anyone it was being done to me. It makes me sick thinking about it.
The therapist if right one. Will not tell you to get over it. you can learn to deal with it but you will never get over it. or forget it i mean to say. and thats ok. But learning to deal with the fact that it wasnt your fault. and that the person that did it to you is sick. not you. hang in there. sounds like you have a nice friend. blaze
