I am normally so much more responsible with these boards. I have been having a tough time. Getting rid of my Mr. Wonderful is much tougher than I had expected. I feel like my heart is breaking because he asked me to go to one of the taverns and I said "no". I told him the reasons, that I was dog-tired from work, had to be up with my son in 6 hours to get him ready for school, and couldn't go another night this week wothout sleep. I don't get to go home and sleep it off, like he does. I have two children who are at home, as well as the one at school. He was sad and I am just crushed with guilt. Logically, this seems absolutely irrational since I am always forgiving of his blow-offs and stumbling and passing out. I am sure that he will call again. I do want to be his friend, but I can't be anything more until he takes some form of action on his own behalf. My hurt feelings and deep sense of loss remain, nevertheless. Also, I have bipolar, and I really think that he does have some similar issues as well as the many things that we have in common. I think that we could have something great (friendship wise) if we came together for the purpose of supporting healthy habits on eachother's behalf. I don't want to get too excited over a hope of mine. Like I said, it's just tough and rotten. How's life in your neck of the woods? Smile!
~Sunshine~
