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January 20, 2006, 2:10 pm PST
reply to in shock
Quote From: whisperj23 This is the first time I have ever posted anything but I'm beginning to wonder were else to go were others would understand what I'm going through. Last night I got a phone call telling me that my dear friend of many years took his life. Earlier this week he had committed himself because he knew he needed and wanted help but yesterday when they released him from the hospital it wasn't but a few hours later that he was found. I'm not angry with him, he had been fighting his own inner demons his whole life, I just hope that he has finally got peace It's been only a few hours since I found out and it's a lot easier then it was right after I was told, but now I feel numb...like I'm walking through a fog. I've never dealt with death before and I'm not sure how I'm supposed to act or feel. It's surreal to me. The main thing I'm dealing with right now is that I still have a few more calls to make to let friends know what happened and it tears me apart every time I've had to tell someone. I'm not trying to think about what he did but the memories that I have him, I'm afraid that if I don't I'll forget them. I'm still a little rattled so forgive me if I sound like I'm rambling but thank you for taking the time to read what I have said. I am so sorry to hear a about your friend. I know how you feel. I lost my daughter to suicide last year. She also fought the demons most of her short life( she was 23 yrs old.) Sometimes they just get tired. I do believe that our loved ones are now at peace and suffer no more. We have to remember that we were very lucky to have been part of their lives and lucky to have known and loved them. I cherish every moment and memory I had with my daughter. I Hope you can do the same for your friend. I wish you well! I hope to hear how you are doing soon. Linda
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