Quote From: heather175You don't sound like a mean person. Really, really sad but not mean. I know when you are emotionally spent the physical affects start & so you feel even worse.
Why do you think you are so horrible?
Don't throw the towel in on yourself. I don't personally know you but I do know that I don't want you to feel so sad. It takes a lot to trust strangers with those kind of emotions and it's an awsome thing that you shared them. Thank you!!!
Why bother sharing,
When I talk with hubby - he just gets mad at me because I'm listening to the devil and allowing the devil to bring a wedge between my husband and I. Does it ( depression and suicide) happen to me because I'm listening to the devil?
I know the darkness and the pain are real. How to get out and have more strength and energy and how to be me again - that I don't know. I feel numb all over today. back hurts arm and fingers numb again, head wobbly, eyes hurt. I'm hopeless. Yes, I've been taking my meds. I don't think they are helping.
My doc wonders if some of my depression is caused by my husband controlling me - could that be? I don;'t see him as controlling. unsupportive in dealing with the depression, yes, not willing to let me go shopping unless he know what its for and if he agrees that we need it - yes,
I didn't go to church today - just don't want to. I'm tired of being fake!
I am hopeless, It isn't any use for you all to try to respond, I probably wont believe you anyway. I know your trying - i'mn just venting. all I see right now is blackness. It's so black. can i take some sleeping pills and never wake up - let the blackness take me away. Jewels
