Hi: I lost a child five years ago and I'm still dealing with the lonliness and profound loss. It will take you a long long time to feel like you want people around all the time. This is new to you, and sadly, people do not know what to say, so they say nothing. I find great comfort when I share memories of my son with other people- they do feel your loss, trust me, but for some reasons, we personally feel better in our safe little coccoon, until we can smile. I smile, but it never reaches my eyes, like before. Sad to say, you are not the same person and now you're living the "new normal" for you.
Take your time, be good to yourself, and grieve now, not ten years from now because it makes others uncomfortable. Be true to yourself.
