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August 13, 2005, 7:52 am PDT

The past,

Quote From: taemanai

Yes Ritehere, I have.  I know back a few generations now.   When in a restrictive situation, like with schools etc, I guess going back is in so many many ways that would resolve a lot of things for me, like not exercising for a long time, in order to learn mentally. 

  

Going back through the (education) gate for example, I guess is to separate myself from negative/restrictive social hierachies, to exercise and find balance, and like going to a school-reunion (don't know of any yet).  So I learn to see these situations fairly and with out prejudice. 

  

Family history has also had such a slant, because one side came from overseas.  That the other side has been given more importance over the other side.  In some ways, my own behaviour has reflected this.  Identity was a vital issue that I learned about in my Arts course, where students are known for not being on the usual side of social normality. 

  

  

Nice to talk to you all. 

Taemanai 

  

  

I've discovered that we are bits and pieces of all that has gone before, and we are not. We are shaped by those that have gone before us, but we are unique beings also, able to go forward in ways that are ours only. I found a variety of "characters" in my past, ranging from possible nobility to cattle rustlers to some real shady ladies. But they are not me. I have the freedom, and the responsibility, and make my own mark in this world. I've gotten a later start than others, but that's OK, better late than never.
School reunions can be illuminating in the self analysis leading to discovering how we got to the place we are at. For example, when I went to my first one, I learned that many thought I was shy, stupid, or thought I was better than others. I was amazed! In my own mind, I was afraid of others, due to hearing problems and self esteem issues. I thought I was not as good as others, and the idea that others would come to the exact opposite conclusion was astounding. But there you have it, that was the facade that I presented to the world. The conclusions were incorrect but I could not hate them for thinking that way, just the same as I could not blame myself. It just WAS. It's difficult to realize that you've been putting your happiness in the hands of people who do not see you clearly, relying on their good opinion of you when their opinion is based on faulty conclusions. Self-worth, contentment, and happiness can only come from within. Once you see yourself clearly, others will be able to  also.
 


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