Quote From: saffronsisPlease find some inner strength and get out. Anyway you can. It sounds like you may be in an abusive relationship. I was in one for over 15 years. You deserve much better.
Check out the books;
1. Cutting Loose by Ashton Applewhite
2. The Emotionally Abused Woman by Beverly Engel
3. and my favorite, Why Does He Do That? by Lundy Bancroft (a guy)
Peace,
saffronsis
I have been in the same situation (young and dumb syndrome) now that I have grown and have three kids I realize that kids suffer more in a relationship like that than they do when having divorced parents. you owe it to them to be happy. don't wait till youv'e waisted 15 years to live.
till then I suggest the book called the bible for strength.