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This is my first night on the message boards. I have lived with my parents and maternal grandparents for most of my life. I am now 28 years old. My Grandpa and I rarely got along, until a year ago when he really changed after having a stroke. After 8 months of getting to know my Gramps and making amends my Gramps ended up in the hospital after recieving 2 emergency brain surgeries in 2 days. He had fallen because of a blood clot in his brain.  Forty-two days later, we brought him home to pass away. He never really woke up. We have some great memories while in the hospital with him. I don't care what the dr's say, I know he knew we were there and he communicated with us.  

He passed away June 6, 2005. I was standing next to his bed. I seen him take his last breath. I miss that man so much. I am the 3rd oldest grandchild, so I had 28 years with that man. None of the problems we had before than really matter. I miss him so much that now, I am on medical leave from work for anxiety and stress. I already suffered from severe depression, but now it is so much worse. I still leave in the same house with my parents and Grams. I expect to see him or hear his walker going down the hall. I miss his teasing so much. I miss him. He was such a great man. I have heard this gets easier, but I wish it was sooner than later.  

I am so glad to have found this message board knowing that others know how I feel. Thank you all that have shared your stories. <wiping tears> I look forward to the day when it is easier, but knowing there are others who know what it is like makes it a little easier. Thank you! 

Millymae