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Quote From: dramamama

Well, I can't say that I was suppose to be seen and not heard as a child as you were. In fact, I had to learn not to say everything I thought...or find a way to say it gently...I did have problems emotionally connecting, however. I was lucky to have one friend who has been my best friend since we were 4......so that helped alot.....I also had to take chances with people...I learned early that protecting myself was not going to get me where I wanted to go...It is a risk you take but the choice is not yours as to who will hurt you....we can't control others unfortunately. The choice we have to make is to love and allow others to love us...Love is a choice and Happiness is a choice...We also can choose to be a victim...I am not belittling anything that you or anyone else has been through. I sought to free myself from the vicitmization and the prison these persons had put me in...Does this makes sense? I decided...ok. God...I can't do this...I have no control...Only You have the control...You have allowed these horrible circumstances for one purpose and one purpose only...to reveal Yourself to me and through me to others. I have to look at the story of Job in the Bible. How crazy was he to remain faithful to his God? Everyone said he was nuts...How about a modern Job? Christopher Reeve? Wasn't he nuts to continue to try to be productive and not close himself off and curl up and die a quadreplegic? Remain hopeful...continue to love.....continue to care...don't let them win...don't let your spirit die! When you feel like giving up, try harder...Pick up and do it again! Get back on that horse...You have to succeed eventually! You are an inspiration to those around you...though you may not know it! Romans 8:37 "We are more that conquerors...." Remember that verse....I will be praying for you and Ragdoll!