Quote From: mjkkasWell I hope I don't mislead you, I just know for us it really helped.
It is essentially up to her too, she has to want to change her ways
and as I said before, it is the drugs that you are seeing, not your daughter.
As mothers we know what we wish for them and hope for them and
also what they could become. So hang on to those and don't forget
the little girl that you remember from before all this.
God does work miracles, we just have to see them sometimes. You
have come a long ways and you are not being punished for things
you may have done, I hope that you don't feel that way!
Moving is scary, I know, I just moved 7 months ago from my mom and dad.
I lived there for 20 years and now I am not too near my mom and my
dad just died. Now we moved again, but it was only a block away from
where we lived last time anyway.
God Bless You!
I think it would be a great help to us as well, even in the sense of starting over. Letting go of some of the sadness and beginning a new way of life. My birthday was yesterday, and I spent the day with my husband and all of the kids. My husband and I had lunch and went to see the new Harrison Ford movie, then the little ones came home and eventually my older daughter. The weather was horrendous and still she was out in it. She had intended on getting me flowers for my birthday (I don't really need anything from her I only wanted her company) but she realized she had no money left. I made myself a big fat chocolate chip cake with butter cream icing and basically I was really tired by the time that was all finished.
It was a nice day all in all, a rare day lately but still I am grateful for that much. Don't worry I won't forget my happy little girl. I know she is in there somewhere, and I guess I will learn to get to know this one and eventually be past all of this. I was sort of feeling punished but even more just ashamed that I had turned out to be such a disappointment to her. I feel like I might not be as good a parent as I had always hoped I was. Loving them isn't enough is it, you have to be so many other things. I have limited education, and may have made too many mistakes with her that I didn't even know I was making, and who is to say that I am not making them with my other two children?
You have been going through a lot of changes yourself. How have you been this last week? I know your heartache too, my dad has been gone since before 911. I still cry at times and have such empty feelings but you know I also have moments where I swear I hear his voice giving me advice or telling me that everything is okay and that is a real comfort. My husband got the news yesterday that his company has been officially sold, and we are now waiting again to find out if he will be out of a job, so the thought of moving and handling all of this is just so overwhelming.
I know we will be okay and you have been such a help, thank you.
Have a good day MJ, God bless, Mar.
