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August 17, 2005, 7:38 pm PDT
 Quote From: beachsmile Cathy, poster 101160, has a thoracic back injury. Morelok has had successful spine surgery. Lynn's mother has had successful spine surgery. So your next for successful spine surgery this Friday. I'm still hoping to be on ABC's Extreme Makeover to get mine or Renovate My Family with Dr. Phil's son, Jay. Back to you, though, your could have presurgery jitters as spine surgery is scary for anybody. I know you have had clinical depression for years. So here's some innovative new things you can do after you heal from neck surgery and, to some degree, you can now perhaps. Practice breathing to where you breathe deeper. Shallow breathing has been linked to anxiety, panic and depression and, even last month, an expert concurred the importance of oxygenating the brain. Ideally, after you heal from surgery, if you and your wife could go for walks every day as a couple that is A LOT of fun and a wonderful way to renew that "going together" feeling. Walking at malls and stopping at bistro cafe for tea or coffee or a milk shake. Positive affirmations can help because you are very hard on yourself. You DO have a wonderful wife but is she is so wonderful, and I believe you that she is, you must be too to her...as she sounds like one smart cookie to me. So, begin a daily positive affirmation notebook and title each (daily page) SELF MATTERS includes and sign your name with confidence and fill up with things positive about yourself and your attributes. Go to medlineplus.gov and type in depression and scroll to their encyclopedia defintion and read check list as sounds like you are proactive. Maybe you will see something you haven't tried yet. Also at www.clinicaltrials.gov you can type in Clinical Depression to check on new research. Believe it or not two studies in Dallas, proved walking 45 minutes a day resolved depression in mildly depressed that were non-responsive to medications. My father was a disabled veteran (PTSD) so I know all about discrimination, like your boss, such as not even being considered for plays. So poor my biggest dream then was having a matching dress and socks in grade school to fit in. What I tried to do is imagine if I was those who fit in...maybe I too wouldn't be empathetic to others less fortunate. So I would just be happy for others and developed a very strong relationship with God. Accepting my assigned roll of whatever, if anything is left over, I could have it if we remember to offer it to you. Actually in 6th grade teacher was mad I won Presidential Physical Fitness competition as then only two girls and boys got. It was that program that made me learn the importance of physical fitness and not consuming things unhealthy and years later President Clinton sent me my patch I never got in 1998. How cool is that? Plus, often being an observer of life was kind of neat. Anyway, back to you, since bosses can be abusive I don't rush to leave my president job. It is hard since a leap of faith hoping the next job is better. We'll never know if we leap will we though. Sort of like always jumping into a cool pool isn't so bad once you jump in. You touched on your grandson but didn't elaborate...is there something there troubling you? Spectacular you have written two books. Do you have a Writer's Market book. Library might have most current edition so ask librarian or check out this link "www.writersmarket.com/index_ns.asp" . SQuire Rushnell, of ABC, said he just sent in first chapter of his book to publisher to give publisher an idea. Writer's Market book will let you know what format publisher prefers. Yes, there are answers. Fear Not. Have Faith. IN YOU because SELF MATTERS includes YOU. If you can dream it you can achieve it. You got your dream partner. Most our limits are self imposed but we do run across a few who aren't empathetic...like one of your employers sounds...and like Jesus did we just kick the dust from our sandals and move on to those who do accept us. Hey, if your book is a best seller and what you write helps others discriminated against, that will be a plus. Don't give up on you no matter who else ever does because then you are just proving them right and instead prove God right because God doesn't make junk. Leave vengeance unto God...you have a life to live so let him keep score. Prayers to you and yours and please pray for me as well. Look in mirror each a.m. and say, "SELF MATTERS includes me because God doesn't make junk and so I'm putting all my worries on God's To Do List while I look for the possibilities in my life and count my blessings. These two links help me and, perhaps, will help you www.joelosteen.com/site/PageServer?pagename=FullSchedule IF YOU'D LIKE TO RECEIVE A FREE DAILY POSITIVE MINUTE E-MAILED TO YOU EACH A.M. JUST GO TO LINK BELOW on www.hourofpower.org/email/about.html Things are going to get better and better every day. Prayers follow you to and through your surgery Friday with MANY blessed tomorrows to follow you there and beyond. The format of these replies is a bit confusing to me. Thanks for your reply and concern. My comments about my grandson was based on a couple of things. I was terribly troubled that I could not pick him up, spend the time with him I desired due to the restrictions caused from my neck injury. The surgery seems to have been a success and I am just waiting to see if I fully recover from the physical symptoms after recovering from surgery.
The other thing is that as with my kids when they were growing up I was afraid I would not be around to see them grow up. My grandson is almost 2 years old and we are very close. What I am up against is the same thing as when my kids were growing up, and until this day. When the depression sets in it takes over my emotions completly. I really do not know if one day I will decide that I have had enough and make a split second decision. It's hard to fight this so many days. It's hard to explain, but it seems that my emotions are so hurtful, my reaction may be unpredictable.
Basically I am afraid of my own self some times. For instance, a few months ago I was severly depressed and was facing a major emotional situation, and without thinking it thru, I was in the barn with a rope and was tying the rope to the rafters, and was not thinking of the end result. I just knew I was in tremendous emotional pain by reflex was attempting to eliminate the pain. My son-in-law happened to walk into the barn and I was able to quickly come to my senses and diverted his attention by claiming I was rigging a support for something.
As I see it right now, there are no answers. I don't know what may happen, I don't know how much control I actually have when I am that deeply depressed. It saddens me to think that I could have ended my life and how it could have affected my grandson, and the rest of the family.
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August 18, 2005, 10:02 am PDT
Quote From: beachsmile Cathy, poster 101160, has a thoracic back injury. Morelok has had successful spine surgery. Lynn's mother has had successful spine surgery. So your next for successful spine surgery this Friday. I'm still hoping to be on ABC's Extreme Makeover to get mine or Renovate My Family with Dr. Phil's son, Jay. Back to you, though, your could have presurgery jitters as spine surgery is scary for anybody. I know you have had clinical depression for years. So here's some innovative new things you can do after you heal from neck surgery and, to some degree, you can now perhaps. Practice breathing to where you breathe deeper. Shallow breathing has been linked to anxiety, panic and depression and, even last month, an expert concurred the importance of oxygenating the brain. Ideally, after you heal from surgery, if you and your wife could go for walks every day as a couple that is A LOT of fun and a wonderful way to renew that "going together" feeling. Walking at malls and stopping at bistro cafe for tea or coffee or a milk shake. Positive affirmations can help because you are very hard on yourself. You DO have a wonderful wife but is she is so wonderful, and I believe you that she is, you must be too to her...as she sounds like one smart cookie to me. So, begin a daily positive affirmation notebook and title each (daily page) SELF MATTERS includes and sign your name with confidence and fill up with things positive about yourself and your attributes. Go to medlineplus.gov and type in depression and scroll to their encyclopedia defintion and read check list as sounds like you are proactive. Maybe you will see something you haven't tried yet. Also at www.clinicaltrials.gov you can type in Clinical Depression to check on new research. Believe it or not two studies in Dallas, proved walking 45 minutes a day resolved depression in mildly depressed that were non-responsive to medications. My father was a disabled veteran (PTSD) so I know all about discrimination, like your boss, such as not even being considered for plays. So poor my biggest dream then was having a matching dress and socks in grade school to fit in. What I tried to do is imagine if I was those who fit in...maybe I too wouldn't be empathetic to others less fortunate. So I would just be happy for others and developed a very strong relationship with God. Accepting my assigned roll of whatever, if anything is left over, I could have it if we remember to offer it to you. Actually in 6th grade teacher was mad I won Presidential Physical Fitness competition as then only two girls and boys got. It was that program that made me learn the importance of physical fitness and not consuming things unhealthy and years later President Clinton sent me my patch I never got in 1998. How cool is that? Plus, often being an observer of life was kind of neat. Anyway, back to you, since bosses can be abusive I don't rush to leave my president job. It is hard since a leap of faith hoping the next job is better. We'll never know if we leap will we though. Sort of like always jumping into a cool pool isn't so bad once you jump in. You touched on your grandson but didn't elaborate...is there something there troubling you? Spectacular you have written two books. Do you have a Writer's Market book. Library might have most current edition so ask librarian or check out this link "www.writersmarket.com/index_ns.asp" . SQuire Rushnell, of ABC, said he just sent in first chapter of his book to publisher to give publisher an idea. Writer's Market book will let you know what format publisher prefers. Yes, there are answers. Fear Not. Have Faith. IN YOU because SELF MATTERS includes YOU. If you can dream it you can achieve it. You got your dream partner. Most our limits are self imposed but we do run across a few who aren't empathetic...like one of your employers sounds...and like Jesus did we just kick the dust from our sandals and move on to those who do accept us. Hey, if your book is a best seller and what you write helps others discriminated against, that will be a plus. Don't give up on you no matter who else ever does because then you are just proving them right and instead prove God right because God doesn't make junk. Leave vengeance unto God...you have a life to live so let him keep score. Prayers to you and yours and please pray for me as well. Look in mirror each a.m. and say, "SELF MATTERS includes me because God doesn't make junk and so I'm putting all my worries on God's To Do List while I look for the possibilities in my life and count my blessings. These two links help me and, perhaps, will help you www.joelosteen.com/site/PageServer?pagename=FullSchedule IF YOU'D LIKE TO RECEIVE A FREE DAILY POSITIVE MINUTE E-MAILED TO YOU EACH A.M. JUST GO TO LINK BELOW on www.hourofpower.org/email/about.html Things are going to get better and better every day. Prayers follow you to and through your surgery Friday with MANY blessed tomorrows to follow you there and beyond. I am in the process of writing these books. I have no idea how to market them once they are completed. But I do want to get the word out, especially to the larger corporations who have people such as my supervisor who gets ahead by trampling on others. Luckily for him I wasn't a land-mine, but there are many that exists, and eventually someone like will step on one.
I have written to the local HR people, and to a CEO and VP in France who is a US contact to warn him of the potentials that could possibly exist, and the fact that had I been someone else, or not mentally stable as my supervisor has tried to imply, things may have turned out differnlty for him. This is not a threat. I am just merely trying to open some eyes.
I also feel strongly that a huge percentage of domestic violence cases result from people like myself who cannot fit in at work, and/or society because of diversities, and they take it out on their loved ones. As horrible as this sounds, I sincerely believe I am on the right track. People tend to vent their frustrations at thier weakest points, or victims. Like a ruptured radiator hose on a car, the water spews from the weakest point. The affects are on the people who are in close proximity to this weak point. |
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