I know it doesn't feel that way. So many times I have sat and cried and felt alone & wondered why my parayers went unheard or unanswered. Then one day when I least expect it I get my answer and never have I gotten an answer that does not have God's presence and influence in it. You are a child of God and he loves you beyond all words. He is there and while it does break his heart to see you hurt so bad he is there. I promise you he IS there. The best thing you can do for yourself is call on him even when you don't think he is listening. Every fear, worry, pain and sorrow you have to call on God. I know I need to take my own advice at times but he loves you and we love you and you are not alone. If I could I would come to you, take you to lunch or for for coffee and give you a big hug and tell you what a wonderful person I have gotten to see through the things that you say on these boards. You are sweet and caring to everyone here and we appreciate that. And we need you here. Your a precious Jewel to us. Better than the hope diamond. :)
