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that is so true we will never be ready to recover.  one thing my counselor back home always told me was "things never change unless things change."  meaning if i didn't so something to make things change then they would not.  i surely was not ready to recover when i decided i had to change things and it wasn't until then or later that i could say well i think i want to recover.  it is so hard but i know in the end it will be worth it.  sometimes i think why does it have to hurt so  bad to choose to live but the thing is it may hurt so bad not but when I have got all of that burried stuff thrown out then it won't hurt so bad. sure i will have to face things but i know it has to be worth it!!  i have never been a crier at all but one day i wanted to cry so bad and went to the psych prof office and said is it really ok to cry is it really ok for me to cry and as soon as she said yes i bursted into tears but i did not allow them to last long.  i still hate to cry but i know after i eat if i feel like cryring i have to let myself cry and when i need to cry myself to sleep which i have done many nights cry myself to sleep and when i don't have any idea why i feel so much pain inside and just feel like i want to crry well then i try to let myself cry.  it took a while but i did it.  it is very hard but i believe that it can, is and will be done

Hello, I am 19 and have had anorexia for 6 years also. I also agree that you will never be "ready" to recover. Do you consider yourself to be recovered now? If so, how did you go about the journey? Right now, I am trying my hardest to stay in recovery and it gets harder every day, but I am still fighting. I always thought that there would come a time when I was ready to give up my ED. Like I would say "ok, I've had enough, I am ready to move on," I am finding that not to be the case. Oh, how I wish it were though. Recovery would be a lot easier if we felt completly ready. I wish you all the best in your journey down this recovery road..... 

Julie