Replies to 'Anorexia'

Hehe, well, someone (not mentioning any names :-)) didn't have her snack last night either. Honestly though, it's just because I didn't eat dinner till 11 at night because that's when I got home from work! really hope I don't get kicked out of the clinic because of that! Thanks for reading my posts. I know sometimes I like to write novels on here, but it means a lot to me to know that people don't mind reading them. Lastly, no I was not talking about you when I was talking about the email. Another lovely girl named Sarah sent me an email. Sorry for the confusion :-)! So how are you doing? Is the meal plan working out? Just fill  us all in,  haven't heard from how YOU are doing in a while now, my dear! 

Julie 

great to hear you drunk your boost!!  it is hard to stuff food down your throat sometimes it is easier to think it sure would be nice if i could live without food. but then again even though we think food as evil most of the time haaaa all of the time (although i am learning different) it can taste so good.  i can't count the times i have said food is decieving.  although now that i am eating healthy stuff and taking vitamins and all that i sure am starting to feel better physically.  i wonder how i made it through days i was so close to death man and i didn't see it annd i am sure if i were to slip back into the eating disorder i would deny that i ever was close to death because there is a part of me that wants to say whatever i was not atleast physically but mentally i was so sucicidle.... even though i didn't want to kill myself i kept thinking of things that could have killed me if i had done it.   

Rene'