This has been a very difficult time for me ..... very difficult.... I just want the world to stop spinning long enough for me to get the heck off. Don't worry, I am not going to do anything harsh. I just can't stop crying. I am soooooo tired of feeling and being nothing more than a looser. I suffer from chronic back pain, depression and that might be getting in the way. I just want to stop crying and I want my life back. I feel like a failure to my husband and an embarassment to my son. In my heart, I feel he loves me...but, I hate myself. I don't want to be this looser anymore. I once was a success....now....I am nothing!! Sorry for the negative self pity crud. Was never ever ment to be that way. Thanks to you all.
I really missed all of you and the support that was always there. You guys are the best!!! That is from the bottom of my heart.
From: Nekocats.....now......Nekocats2
Hi Nekocat2:
Just wanted to say you're not a loser or a nothing. I deal with
chronic pain 24/7 and had to accept that this is where I'm at
now in life and try to do the best I can with my disabilities. Every
morning when I get up, do whatever I can for the day with my
limitations and make it through the day with the pain, I consider
myself successful. Sure, you're going to have self pity party,
that goes along with chronic pain. So don't apologize and keep
coming back. There's always someone here to listen and offer
support.
My best wishes and prayers to you!
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