I know how it is to "try" and get out and exercise. But when the depression reaches it's ultimate high....that just doesn't work. I force myself to do things. I have been suicidal in the past....well....many times....several times....well never mind what I was going to say....just say....I was medically dead. Heck, some reason God keeps saying no. I just want to stop crying. I too have a difficult time telling my husband just how horrible I feel, not because he wouldn't understand, but because I don't want him to be afraid to go to work and leave me alone.
You said that you do not have any support groups in your "crappy town" you live in....so if I can be of support....YES!!! I would and will always do my best to help if I can. I do know the pain! Remember, I am here if you would like to start a support group.
Formally Nekocats....now.....Nekocats2 (new site change)
Who do I look for? Wish you the best...I don't mean to sound cheesy...but I do mean that! Lonliness is a horrible place to be. I write to you throughout my tears so forgive my typos.
I posted the message about the girl who hung herself.....please please listen to me, do what ever it takes to get help, support. i only wish i could of helped this young woman that hung herself (she lived on my street and her son was a friend of my sons) when I look back now I wished I would of tried hareder to help her. If you need someone to talk to e-mail me I don't know what I have to offer you, but I can listen and I can care.
michelle
