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February 24, 2006, 8:28 am PST
 Quote From: domerdude My form of the illness is very resitant to treatment. I have no idea why that is, probably just something about my makeup, but that is why it took so long to find something that would stabilize me. I currently take 1500 mg of Lithium per day, 375 mg of Lamictal per day and 30 mg of aripiprazole per day to give you an idea of the amount of medicine. My mind is clear for the first time in a long, long time, but I still feel overmedicated. But I know from experience that I'm on the amount I need to be on to stay clear, if I take less than that I get into trouble, so it's sort of a no-win. Well, I shouldn't say that. From where I have come from I have a lot to be thankful for, but it is frustrating to know that other people are living good lives while mine rots away. I wish I could go without meds, but I'm wise enough to know that will only lead me down a road I don't want to go.
As far as psychiatrist/psychologist relationships go, the two that I have are top notch. I think they have done as much as they can do to this point. I would love to be on the Dr. Phil to share my story with America. I think people need to see how normal we are while appreciating the struggles that we face. I just don't think a lot of people who don't have the illness understand. This is my first time on here - I've been "living" with Bipolar for over ten years now and with each new year feel like I can't do another one...but I do...somehow...
I've been reading a lot about the disease lately because it does seem to be talked about a little more. My main problem is that the facts don't always seem to be reported. There is so much emphasis on other diseases and I can't figure out why this one is so taboo. I agree whole-heartedly that people need to see that we are normal and that we are trying to live our lives like everyone else.
It's exhausting trying to maintain a daily routine, trying to remind myself that life is worth living - that there are things to look forward to each day, that I'm not really a burden to other people when my moods swing so drastically. My Mother was diagnosed after me - on her 58th birthday when she took a bottle of pills and did her best to end it all. The same woman that ridiculed me when I began my current treatment. She is doing much better now but I wonder how I am suppose to believe life is so great when my own Mother obviously doesn't see it that way.
Anyway - I just wanted to introduce myself to everyone and hopefully start a new chapter in my healing process. |
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February 24, 2006, 10:15 am PST
Quote From: domerdude My form of the illness is very resitant to treatment. I have no idea why that is, probably just something about my makeup, but that is why it took so long to find something that would stabilize me. I currently take 1500 mg of Lithium per day, 375 mg of Lamictal per day and 30 mg of aripiprazole per day to give you an idea of the amount of medicine. My mind is clear for the first time in a long, long time, but I still feel overmedicated. But I know from experience that I'm on the amount I need to be on to stay clear, if I take less than that I get into trouble, so it's sort of a no-win. Well, I shouldn't say that. From where I have come from I have a lot to be thankful for, but it is frustrating to know that other people are living good lives while mine rots away. I wish I could go without meds, but I'm wise enough to know that will only lead me down a road I don't want to go.
As far as psychiatrist/psychologist relationships go, the two that I have are top notch. I think they have done as much as they can do to this point. I would love to be on the Dr. Phil to share my story with America. I think people need to see how normal we are while appreciating the struggles that we face. I just don't think a lot of people who don't have the illness understand. Your not alone , but what do you mean make-up if you don't mind me asking? You know what alot of people don't know about the illness. I went to support groups and it brought me down I came out of there so depressed now i'm looking for a cousellor, My lithium might go up again i WENT AND GOT my blood work and i don't know yet . You know what you might feel over medicated and so do I but what we both have been threw i would rather see the sun shining. I want you to listen to Carrie Underwood listen to her words that was me month and half ago and died 3 times but kept coming back. song is jesus take the wheel. You are faced with alot of challenges but your taking your meds. You are not rotting away that is bi-polar talking to you and when that happens get yourself some bar bells and pump it up or a bag , punching bag and say you are not going to control my life ,,,, I CONTROL YOU......... Remember Bi-polar is brain imbalance don't let them win okay I'm toning about 7:00 you can talk to me anytime my e-mail is on my profile . We'll go threw this together cause I know what your going threw okay sometimes I might not make sence cause I've lost alot memory , slow due to what happen. But by god everyone life is important excepcially yours. Your life is precious and we were all put on this board to help each other. I wrote to Dr. Phil told him my story. Just about lost my children because children's Aid don't know nothing about bi-polar nother subject. I have to go take my meds okay bud..... BE BRAVE SOMEONE HERE CARES. YOUR NOT ALONE... WOODFAM |
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